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I wanted to take a minute and really introduce myself.
My name is Adela Hittell and I truly have an unbelievable story to tell.
I was born and raised for a part of my life in Bosnia Herzegovina where I spent approximation five weeks in prison and 4 years in hell. Fortunately for me, I do not remember that time. Unfortunately my subconscious and my body does. I moved to America in 1997 as a POW (prisoner of war) with my immediate family and we lived in the beautiful state of NH for a few years.
Eventually we moved to FL, where I decided to rebel against the world and ultimately myself.
Again, fortunately for me I met my soul mate at 18 and fast forward to this moment I have to say how lucky I am and how blessed we have been in our 13 years of a relationship. It has truly, truly been the heaven of this life.
I have an 8 year old son who is my whole world and who inspired me to really reflect and take control of myself.
The human who saved my life and reset the purpose I am on today.
I have spent 25 years surviving. I have only begun to learn how to live. At the age of 28, I had my rebirth and now at almost 33, I am beginning to tap into my conscious awareness on a level I have dreamed of. I have a lifetime of education I have to acquire about the mind, body and soul/conscious. I have a lifetime of education I have to acquire about trauma, specifically my own.
For the last 15 years I have racked my brain for answers to my physical, emotional and mental pain. I spent years bouncing from doctor to doctor all whom would look at me and tell me that the physical pains were all in my head, that my hormones were out of balance because I was a women and the trauma, I needed take a pill and chill. I could not control the emotional depletion I was experiencing, especially after giving birth, because of my physical pains. They only increased.
The best way I can describe it is for the last 15 years I have begged my husband and anyone around me to break my bones because it would feel better. I truly believe it would feel better. My muscles lock up and electric pains start shooting up and down. Numbness and tingling, then burning sensations until the whole spot on my body becomes so tender to the touch. All over my body.
Last year, July 2, 2018 I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and rheumatoid arthritis (RA & Fibro) and it was the best thing that has happened to me in a long time. The diagnosis. It confirmed I was not crazy. I was in pain. Since then I have made it a point to change my life completely. Both diagnoses have been a blessing in disguise because I have been forced to slow down and respect my body and my mind. To learn and understand myself. To have compassion for myself.
To find a new way to think about everything. I did and I am thriving.